Friday, January 28, 2011

goodbye 10s hello 20s!


selepas mnyanyi lagu fallin fo u smbil suara tersekat2 akibat keadaan batuk yg agak kronik,(skill mnyanyi mak pun da hilang yuuu~!)saye decide nk tulih belogg psal beday saya yg ke dua puloooooh.tepat pukol 12.15 baru perasan hari dah bertukar drp 19hb kepada 20hb. jenguk2 hp, SATU MESEJ!!!bukak2
beday wish dr izzah...1st person as always. :)
then miey kol smbil men uke dye uh.tq miey
up until....3 am kot.xde org meseh pun..dorg x igt beday aku. :(
dah la demam.demam sensorg.on my 20th beday.SINGLE! :'(( lol.
esoknye ajak zatil tman g klinik uni sbb x sehat.perat
i dye duk tokkk tekk tokkk tekkk men meseh.pakwe baru kah?then rase curious kat henpon kiut dye yg kaler pink tu.lalu...
"zatil.mntak henset jap.."
dye pun ngan teragak2...separuh jalan nak kasik ak then dye tarik balik smbl ckp
"jap ye.na reply msg"
ak perasan mne ade mesej smpai poooonnn....booooo.. kalut hang duk buat2 reply msg..ak pun wat bodo sude.
dalam hati tergedik2 gak anak tekak nak gtaw zatil..
"zatil arini beday akuuuu!!!!"
tp biarlahh....
on d way balik tiba2 ade org kol zatil.zatil ckp fizah ade kt bilik dye.PELIK.tp x kesa la..
then duk bilik melayan supernatural smbil mkn mee sup.ade org kol tetibe.
"emi.wat pe?"ole suara awek yg x dpt dicam
"sape ni?"tanya aku
"yana ni.ko wat pe tu?"ooohhh..coursemate ak yg comel tuh.
"xde apa2..awat?"
"ak nk hard disk ak balik.emergency ni."
"HD ko pade zatil.dye ade koko laa ni"
"laa yeke?cne ni ek?ak nk jugak.emergency ni.
"i c wat i can do.."

kol zatil...
zatil:"ko tlg g bilik ak amek HD yana.ak in hurry da
ni.TQ."

agak keberatan.tp nek la gak.tingkat atas je puuun.
perasan selipar kt lua cm byk.tp lantak ah..itu tombol pntu ak bukak...ak pun tergamam..

"............(5 saat).............lahhh"kata ak terkejut.muka blur tambah koya2.
hamek ko.sebijik2 kek feberet kt depan mata..
ak men2 je tyme ckp ak nk kek secret recipee tok beday.x sngka dorg bli sunggoh2.sian duit ptptn korg!hehe..mmg terkejut gila.sumpah.first tyme org bt gitu kat aku.terharu.tengss guys...
mira,zati,zatil,jia,nafizah,kak izah,yana,mimi,farah,rumet zatil.haha..
TENGSSSS!!!!! :)


Tuesday, January 18, 2011

in my head

aaahh..
right now.
what i see in my head is
me hanging up myself on a rope
or
slits my own throat
or
any other brilliant suicide plans

i used to had those in my head back in matriculation college
those happened when the hard-time-to-face-reality feeling hit my life.

please STOP!

Thursday, January 6, 2011

25 thingy about me

entri kali ni ekceli sejenis tag yg dah ditag oleh amni 10 tahun yg lalu.erk!melampau kot 1o taun.oke it just a metaphore.

here it goes!

1. saya ade low self-esteem
2.saya gila amek gmbar BUKAN bergambar. see d diff?
3.saya sayang kakak saya tapi saya xnak dia tahu.
4.saya suka duit SANGAT2!
5.mase kecik2 saya rase popeye the sailorman tu hensem.
6.saya suka PINK TURQUOISE YELLOW mixed together
7.i can be a real bitch when i'm in a bad mood.
9.saya hargai kawan baik saya
10.saya nak mak saya kawin.
11.saya benci any type of discrimination
12. x suka dibelakangkan.i may never been back-stabbed tp sy dibelakangkan byk kali.
13.x suka tunggu n xsuke buat org tunggu
14.germaphobic bila kt dlm toilet
15.x pandai luahkan perasaan
16.VERY dependent
17.saya x suke..diulangi X SUKA kene pakse
13.I hate being JUDGE
14.i actually curse a lot
15.pernah jadi peminat kipas mati MCR
16.never had a guy that adores me n say 'i love u' every day .NEVER feel that way n that's frustrating.hey call me desperate.u don't know shit. :D
17.i'm fat ugly n have a dark skin.
18.when people say i'm cute. believe me, i don't buy.
19.i love hippies
20. i will watch ugly betty or the big bang theory utk hilangkan homesick
21.i personally hate myself
22.i can sometime be the person that made ur day from dark to rainbows.
23.this may sound cliche, but im a music addict fo real
24.i fracking love glee, the big bang theory, gossip girl.
25. ABBA reminds me of abah.

i tagged this back to everyone that read this.thanks. :)

Saturday, January 1, 2011

1/1/11


new year. yeay. kot!
smalam x dpt countdown or anything sbb spent mase kt dewan kuliah 3 mnyiapkan banner n mascot utk sukan FASA.sedar2. dah 12.05. oh DAMN!haha
azam baru saya?
cube buat keluar satu kertas a4 kosong. *so much for a visionary teenage eh?
ITULAH AZAM SAYA.haha
well not really.
i really hope for a change in my life
a BIG change.
explanation?RAHSIA. muehehe..